When the Strong One Gets Tired

The difference between resting, disappearing, and walking away wounded

SOJOURNER:

Professor, I received a message from someone who is tired. Not the kind of tired that a good night’s sleep fixes. She is tired of helping. Tired of being the nice one. Tired of making sure everything runs smoothly. Tired of being careful not to offend anyone while it seems nobody is particularly careful about offending her. She said something that stayed with me: I’ve given so much that I don’t have anything else to give. And then she asked me a very simple question: What do I do?

I understand her more than she probably realizes. There comes a point when you begin thinking, Fine. If nobody notices me while I’m here, maybe they’ll notice when I’m gone. But something bothers me about that response. There has to be a difference between stepping away because you need restoration and disappearing because you want people to finally realize what they had.

PROFESSOR:

There is. And that distinction may be the most important thing to recognize when the strong one gets tired.

There is nothing wrong with rest. There is nothing wrong with saying no. There is nothing wrong with recognizing that you have reached the limits of what you can presently give.

Jesus Himself withdrew from people to spend time alone with the Father. He did not answer every demand, meet every expectation, heal every sick person in Israel, or allow the urgency of other people’s needs to determine every movement of His life.

But there is a significant difference between withdrawing to be restored and withdrawing so others will finally feel our absence.

The outward action may look exactly the same. In both cases we step back.

But the heart is saying something very different.

One says, Father, I am empty. I need to be with You.

The other says, Maybe when I’m gone, they’ll finally appreciate me.

The first is rest.

The second is woundedness looking for recognition.

SOJOURNER:

And that’s where I think bitterness can sneak in. You can spend years being the dependable one—the friendly one, the helper, the one who smooths everything over and makes sure everybody else is okay. Then one day you look around and realize nobody seems to be asking whether you are okay. That hurts. And I don’t think pretending it doesn’t hurt is particularly spiritual.

PROFESSOR:

It isn’t.

Bitterness beginning to knock at the door does not necessarily mean someone has stopped loving people. Sometimes it means they have been pouring out for a very long time without allowing themselves to be replenished.

Think of bitterness as a warning light on the dashboard.

The answer isn’t to smash the warning light because you’re ashamed that it came on. The answer is to find out what it is telling you.

Sometimes it is saying:

You’re exhausted.

You’re serving from obligation.

You’ve stopped allowing yourself to have needs.

You’ve begun measuring your value by whether other people appreciate what you do.

Or perhaps most painfully:

Somewhere along the way, you began hoping that if you loved people enough, they would eventually love you the same way.

They may not.

Not necessarily because they’re cruel. People can simply become accustomed to receiving what someone faithfully gives.

And that’s where the servant has to return to the Father.

SOJOURNER:

There is another danger I see.

When you’ve spent years being “the strong one,” that can actually become part of your identity.

I’m the one everybody calls.

I’m the one who fixes things.

I’m the one who doesn’t complain.

I’m the one who keeps everybody together.

But what happens when I can’t be that person anymore?

Who am I then?

PROFESSOR:

Perhaps that is one of the questions God wants us to answer.

Before you are the helper, you are His.

Before you are the dependable one, you are His.

Before you are the person everybody calls when something goes wrong, you are His.

And before you are God’s servant, you are God’s child.

Your usefulness is not your identity.

Your productivity is not your identity.

How desperately other people need you is not the measurement of your value.

That is why seasons of exhaustion can sometimes expose something much deeper than tiredness. They reveal where we have been getting our sense of worth.

SOJOURNER:

Then maybe the answer isn’t, “Try harder.” Maybe it isn’t even, “Stop helping everybody.” Maybe the answer is to go back to the source.

PROFESSOR:

Exactly.

Look at Elijah.

After an extraordinary spiritual victory, he reached a point where he wanted to quit. God’s first response wasn’t a lecture about commitment.

Elijah rested.

He ate.

He slept.

And God met him.

Only afterward did direction come.

Sometimes we are trying to make permanent decisions while experiencing temporary depletion.

That is rarely wise.

If you are exhausted, don’t immediately decide your assignment is finished.

If you’re hurt, don’t immediately decide everybody needs to be removed from your life.

And if you need to step away, don’t use your absence as punishment.

You cannot heal invisibility by disappearing so people will finally notice you.

If you need to step back, step back toward God—not merely away from people.

SOJOURNER:

I really like that. Step back toward God, not merely away from people. Because there are times when stepping back is absolutely necessary.

PROFESSOR:

Certainly.

Healthy boundaries are wisdom. Rest is biblical.

Solitude can be holy.

Saying no can be obedience.

But don’t confuse rest with resignation.

Don’t allow a season in which God is restoring you to become a permanent withdrawal caused by woundedness.

And don’t punish people for making you feel invisible by deliberately disappearing from their lives.

Let God determine who remains, where you serve, what you carry, and what you finally put down.

Then something beautiful can happen.

You can begin serving again—not because you desperately need people to see you, but because you have rediscovered the One who always has.

SOJOURNER:

Maybe that’s the freedom we’re really looking for. Not freedom from people. Freedom from needing people to prove that what we’ve given mattered.

PROFESSOR:

Yes.

Because the Father saw it.

He saw the kindness nobody acknowledged.

He saw the sacrifice nobody understood.

He saw the times you stayed when leaving would have been easier.

He saw the things you quietly fixed before anybody even realized something was wrong.

None of it was invisible to Him.

So when the strong one gets tired, perhaps the first question isn’t:

Who still needs me?

And it isn’t:

Who will miss me if I leave?

Perhaps the question is simply:

Father, what do You want from me now?

And then rest long enough to hear the answer.

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A Sojourner’s Reflection

Sometimes the strongest thing a servant can do is stop serving long enough to remember why they began.

We were never meant to live from the applause, appreciation, or recognition of people. Nor were we meant to punish them when they fail to give it.

We serve from relationship with God. We rest in relationship with God. And when the time comes to rise again, we rise from relationship with God. So if you’re the strong one and you’re tired, rest.

Receive. Let the Father replenish what life has drained. Just don’t disappear merely because you’re hoping someone will finally come looking for you.

You were never invisible to the One whose eyes mattered most.